When I am weak, then I am strong

I was torn about starting this blog.  On the one hand, I want this to be a blog where I share lessons I learn mostly from my brokenness.  On the other hand it feels like a very egotistical thing… Like I am saying let me show you how I have it together.  When talking to my brother about setting up the blog, I even joked about breaking his server with all the traffic I will bring.  But I was still hesitant was this what God would want me to do?

I was challenged not to think about “Is this what God wants for me,” but rather “will this bring me closer to God.”  I quibbled: My pastor and I both thought that we were focusing more on God in our consideration. This really gets technical but I was looking at the subject of the sentence (God wants vs me moving), and he was looking at the object of the action (for me vs closer to God ).  I want to do the blog, and don’t see God opposing it, because I blame the technological barriers on my ignorance and malevolent sources.  So It turns out that the question “will it draw me closer to God?” is a better question.

Then the decision solidified for me while I sat in my last FirstLight meeting (for now).  I had just shared work on surrendering to God, like why I don’t want to surrender and what it might look like if I did.  And the leader went into a little discussion on humility. He talked about humility being power submitted to control… I took this to be the control of the Spirit.  This really focused the idea of the chipped dish.  The whole point is not me or my powerful thoughts; it is the submission of all of me: power and brokenness.

Toward the end of my share I said that I am not sure what it really looks like to be submitted to God or to taste and see that God is good.  The whole point of “chippeddish.com” is this: acknowledging that I don’t have it together, but I do seek the kingdom of God who does have it together.   2 Corinthians 12:10 ESV For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.  

This is effectively open journal.   I don’t want to confuse anyone reading this blog.   My posts are not going to be scripture, though I may reference the bible.  They may not even be theologically sound, though I hope not to be a heretic.  My posts are going to be hopefully a way to externally process the fact that I am a chipped dish,  ruminations on life around me, and wrestling with what God is doing.  I hope you will engage the thoughts, provide insight your own, and encourage the better way

Why Chipped Dish?

For the first post, why not a post about what this name came from.  Joy and I have always talked about a coffee shop and I have subtitled it the “Chipped Dish Café.”  When I recently was thinking about what name I would use for the domain and blog I liked the idea of a chipped dish.  You may have heard the quote/book title that “God Uses Cracked Pots.”  Well there’s no reason he couldn’t use a chipped dish.

I want to be able to explore the brokenness and find the beauty.  I hope to explore good, bad, ugly and what they say about what is and what should be.  At all times I hope to be a pointer to Jesus as the hope.  As noted in the name of the blog and this first post. I may be a flawed pointer, but hopefully this is not a distraction from the truth that no matter how chipped and cracked I may be Jesus will make me whole.